I got some really, really bad news on Saturday. On Friday night our friend Wendy was hit by a car and killed crossing the road down by The Level in Brighton.
As you can appreciate the emotions generated from this horrific event are hard to untangle. For me it is a sense of awful and total disbelief and pointlessness. I considered Wendy a friend and she was really good friends with Soph and with my housemate Joe and a whole load of people I'm really close to and think of as my family down here. These are all people I've spent the happiest times of my life with, who if I'm with I know nothing can go wrong and for someone to take away one of those special, important people is heartbreaking.
It doesn't even feel real writing this now. When Matt told me she had died my first thought was "but she's going to be all right". I nearly said it to him but stopped myself. What a fucking stupid thing to say. I think everyone who first heard thought it was a bump and a scrape, but not death, not at our age.
I'll try and remember her as I last saw her, the week before last, at our house party for Joe's birthday with Jari, her boyfriend who is such an amazing person I just keep feeling so upset for his loss.
We miss you Wendy.
I can deal with the 'why', that however hard it is to accept life is random and chance can be brutal and that is a part of the world we inhabit. However I inevitably get tangled up with 'what-ifs' and 'how'. Late yesterday afternoon we laid flowers at the place where it happened and I was shocked at how far Wendy had been thrown by the impact.
We aren't sure about the exact details of what happened but we do know that she was hit by a 4x4. I already think these
bullshit excuses for transport should be banned on environmental grounds so a quick check only confirms what I already suspect: compared to other cars these vehicles are horrendously unsafe for other people in a collision. In fact, as a pedestrian, you are
twice as likely to be killed if hit by one. There is a legitimate reason for owning a four wheel drive designed for off-road use on difficult terrain and that is if you need to go off-road. As of this moment I am unaware if the driver of the vehicle involved was a farmer, but I am fairly confident he isn't. Owning one of these vehicles is a selfish act and socially unacceptable. For environmental reasons alone you're delivering a big fuck-you to the rest of us and as an owner you should be aware of the risks should you be involved in an collision. In fact Admiral Insurance released figures that state that 4x4 drivers are 27% more likely to be at fault in the event of an accident.
There is no need to drive one of these types of vehicle in an urban environment and I think the above firmly establishes that the desire among some people to drive these vehicles is far outweighed by the danger they pose to the rest of us. As the government isn't going ban them any time soon perhaps the council would like to consider not renewing and not issuing parking permits to people who do own these vehicles within the environs of Brighton as there is no provable need for any Brighton resident to drive one of these things around our streets.
What on earth led us to a situation where the areas where we live are riven by tarmac canyons that bring such serious risks? What is laughably termed urban planning seems to think it heretical that the car should be entirely removed from residential areas and, indeed, any area where large numbers of people are moving about on foot. Our right to convenience, to not have to walk more than a few feet at either end of a journey costs us serious injury, death, harm to the environment and ugly places in which to live. It is insane that so much usable space is given over to the car when pedestrians and cyclists are squashed out to the sides of the street where, paricularly in Brighton, you can barely walk two abreast on some pavements and the lines of cars run for miles between terraced houses.
I took a very specific choice in living where I do, in that I regard travelling to work to be a real imposition on time I could spend doing something enjoyable. Therefore I have a job I can comfortable walk to whatever the weather. Getting somewhere quickly is a privilege, not a right and besides all the costs listed above you can add the bad mood most drivers seem to get in when the traffic stacks up. The kind of bad moods that lead to frustration and terrible consequences for a few seconds off a journey. Car culture is destructive both in terms of the physical damage it does to people, to the environment and to us psychologically as it is a problem disguised as convenience.
The government does take road safety 'seriously' though. I've just read their '
Tomorrow's Roads: Safer for everyone' and it does, unsurprisingly, talk largely of setting targets and establishing committees but does NOTHING to address car use, our reliance on the car and the impact they have on the places we live.
I remember my friend Tim saying that seatbelts and airbags were a lot of bollocks and the quickest way to safer roads for pedestrians and cyclists was to make it the law that all vehicles had to have a spike coming out of the dashboard that would gently rest against the driver's forehead. A rather harsh point, if you'll forgive the pun, but illustrates the psychology of someone moving around in something that is warm, comfortable, powerful and that they are told is 'safe'. Not for the rest of us it isn't.